1 00:00:36,495 --> 00:00:40,455 DIGITALLY RESTORED IN 2017 2 00:01:00,352 --> 00:01:04,687 TO JOY 3 00:02:19,139 --> 00:02:22,803 Whom do you wish to speak to? Stig Ericsson? 4 00:02:23,143 --> 00:02:25,385 He's in rehearsal at the moment. 5 00:02:26,938 --> 00:02:28,304 My goodness! 6 00:02:28,482 --> 00:02:31,316 Wait a moment. I'll go call him. 7 00:03:32,879 --> 00:03:36,247 Grandmother sent me. She couldn't make the trip. 8 00:03:36,591 --> 00:03:39,584 I tried calling you at work, but I... 9 00:03:39,845 --> 00:03:41,802 What's happened? 10 00:03:47,894 --> 00:03:50,056 The kerosene stove exploded. 11 00:03:51,898 --> 00:03:55,232 Marta and the little girl were badly burned. 12 00:03:56,695 --> 00:03:58,482 Marta's dead. 13 00:04:00,574 --> 00:04:03,817 They said at the hospital that the girl is okay. 14 00:04:03,994 --> 00:04:08,910 They called just before I left to say she was out of danger. 15 00:04:11,209 --> 00:04:13,292 The kerosene stove exploded. 16 00:04:13,420 --> 00:04:16,083 We heard it go off and came running. 17 00:04:18,049 --> 00:04:20,917 Marta died on the way to the hospital. 18 00:04:29,186 --> 00:04:33,100 Grandmother said she and Grandfather are coming tomorrow. 19 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:35,185 They'll call you. 20 00:04:44,701 --> 00:04:47,569 Lasse and I will go buy a mourning band. 21 00:05:03,804 --> 00:05:07,343 THE STORY OF STIG AND MARTA'S MARRIAGE 22 00:05:07,808 --> 00:05:11,677 BEGINS ON AN AUTUMN DAY SEVEN YEARS EARLIER... 23 00:05:45,178 --> 00:05:47,340 We're beginning a new season. 24 00:05:47,514 --> 00:05:50,257 I think it'll be good. I don't know how you feel. 25 00:05:51,726 --> 00:05:56,016 We welcome two new members to our orchestra. 26 00:05:56,690 --> 00:05:59,649 This is Stig Ericsson. 27 00:06:00,360 --> 00:06:02,943 He's replacing Sunkarn, who died last summer. 28 00:06:03,071 --> 00:06:05,108 God rest his soul. 29 00:06:05,490 --> 00:06:08,153 Then we have a woman in the orchestra. 30 00:06:08,410 --> 00:06:11,869 It's sort of silly, and totally against nature, 31 00:06:12,372 --> 00:06:14,705 but she's reasonably talented. 32 00:06:14,875 --> 00:06:18,039 She's right there, if you haven't noticed her. 33 00:06:18,253 --> 00:06:21,872 Her name is Marta. Welcome to you both. 34 00:06:23,717 --> 00:06:25,299 All right. 35 00:06:25,427 --> 00:06:27,043 Let's get started. 36 00:09:39,829 --> 00:09:42,116 Gentlemen! 37 00:09:43,917 --> 00:09:47,035 Let's have the winds. From the fortissimo. 38 00:10:15,657 --> 00:10:17,990 Give me all you've got! 39 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:28,788 Well, you sounded awful today, 40 00:10:29,045 --> 00:10:30,911 but that's to be expected. 41 00:10:31,047 --> 00:10:32,629 Good afternoon, gentlemen... 42 00:10:32,799 --> 00:10:34,165 and young lady. 43 00:10:34,467 --> 00:10:38,006 Cortot is coming on Thursday. Then we'll have some music! 44 00:10:44,352 --> 00:10:47,015 Hi, Stig. Imagine us ending up here. 45 00:10:47,147 --> 00:10:48,809 How was your summer? 46 00:10:48,940 --> 00:10:52,900 I was abroad with my brother and heard lots of music. 47 00:10:53,611 --> 00:10:54,943 And you? 48 00:10:55,071 --> 00:10:57,313 - Summer orchestra. - Poor thing! 49 00:10:57,490 --> 00:11:00,699 I never want to play "Gold and Silver" again. 50 00:11:00,994 --> 00:11:05,034 - Did you work? - I studied Mendelssohn and others... 51 00:11:05,206 --> 00:11:08,449 - Why are you so angry? - I'm not angry! 52 00:11:09,502 --> 00:11:12,995 Did you find a place to stay? - Yes. And you? 53 00:11:13,214 --> 00:11:15,171 It's a nightmare, but cheap. 54 00:11:15,300 --> 00:11:18,589 There's a party tonight for my birthday. Care to come? 55 00:11:18,761 --> 00:11:22,846 - I don't feel like it. Who'll be there? - You'll see if you come. 56 00:11:23,099 --> 00:11:24,965 Can you lend me a tenner? 57 00:11:25,143 --> 00:11:28,807 It's awkward asking for an advance, and I don't know anyone here. 58 00:11:28,980 --> 00:11:32,394 If you could spare it, great. - If you come tonight. 59 00:11:32,525 --> 00:11:35,393 That's blackmail! I'll come for 20. 60 00:11:35,528 --> 00:11:38,396 - Get a haircut too. - Why? 61 00:11:38,531 --> 00:11:41,865 And buy me a present. Nothing over 1.50. 62 00:11:42,035 --> 00:11:46,245 And try to be pleasant, not your usual grumpy self. 63 00:11:46,372 --> 00:11:47,908 See you. 64 00:12:03,097 --> 00:12:06,215 - What's going on? - I'm cursing my fate. 65 00:12:07,602 --> 00:12:11,346 You look unbelievably comical all clipped and combed. 66 00:12:11,689 --> 00:12:13,225 Is that Marta's doing? 67 00:12:13,358 --> 00:12:15,645 - You know her? - Sure do. 68 00:12:15,777 --> 00:12:18,565 We had a thing together all summer. You? 69 00:12:18,738 --> 00:12:20,525 Just from the academy. 70 00:12:20,657 --> 00:12:23,650 She has a great personality, and she's hot to trot. 71 00:12:23,785 --> 00:12:27,779 Ripe for love, if you get me. - I didn't ask for a full report! 72 00:12:27,956 --> 00:12:31,449 The way she left me almost made me ask for her hand. 73 00:12:31,626 --> 00:12:33,083 And? 74 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:36,162 Caught myself just in time, but it was damn close. 75 00:12:36,297 --> 00:12:39,836 - Well, I'm not interested. - So you're not coming tonight? 76 00:12:40,093 --> 00:12:41,925 No time or interest. 77 00:12:42,095 --> 00:12:44,257 Of course you'll come. 78 00:12:44,430 --> 00:12:47,798 Bring your violin. We'll play before we get drunk. 79 00:12:48,017 --> 00:12:49,633 See you. 80 00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:14,867 I'd like something for 1.50. 81 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,040 That bear there. 82 00:13:21,801 --> 00:13:23,212 This? 83 00:13:23,386 --> 00:13:25,298 It costs 4.80. 84 00:13:25,972 --> 00:13:27,588 I'll take it anyway. 85 00:13:27,724 --> 00:13:30,182 - Shall I wrap it? - No, thanks. 86 00:13:31,477 --> 00:13:33,309 He's very cute. 87 00:13:33,604 --> 00:13:36,517 Yes, those bears are very popular. 88 00:13:38,359 --> 00:13:39,725 Thanks. 89 00:13:41,154 --> 00:13:43,487 Stop that damned nonsense! 90 00:13:43,656 --> 00:13:45,522 He pounded his fist and said... 91 00:13:45,658 --> 00:13:48,492 "Stop that damned nonsense!" 92 00:13:48,953 --> 00:13:51,320 It's quite a funny story. 93 00:13:51,497 --> 00:13:55,332 I'll tell you next time, when we have time. 94 00:14:45,468 --> 00:14:49,462 Stop being silly and let me go! 95 00:15:00,691 --> 00:15:03,650 - What are you grinning at? - You, of course. 96 00:15:04,070 --> 00:15:06,153 Well, stop it, damn it! 97 00:15:06,447 --> 00:15:08,905 You're drunk, so I won't hurt you. 98 00:15:16,541 --> 00:15:19,329 I'm magnificent when I'm on stage. 99 00:15:19,752 --> 00:15:22,165 Have you heard me play the violin? 100 00:15:22,463 --> 00:15:25,752 The big-name players are all charlatans. 101 00:15:25,925 --> 00:15:30,511 They get by on cheap tricks, but I see through their charade. 102 00:15:31,013 --> 00:15:33,847 I'll tell you the secret of real art. 103 00:15:33,975 --> 00:15:36,592 It's created when you're unhappy. 104 00:15:37,103 --> 00:15:39,561 I prefer being unhappy. 105 00:15:39,897 --> 00:15:43,481 God knows it's the state I usually find myself in. 106 00:15:44,610 --> 00:15:48,479 I'll show you bastards what the violin is all about! 107 00:15:49,282 --> 00:15:52,992 I know you all feel guilty. I know what you're thinking. 108 00:15:53,119 --> 00:15:54,781 Are we artists... 109 00:15:54,912 --> 00:15:58,155 when all we think about is drinking, women, and retirement? 110 00:15:58,291 --> 00:16:00,283 I'm drunk, I admit it. 111 00:16:00,460 --> 00:16:03,168 I wouldn't dare say a thing if I weren't. 112 00:16:03,337 --> 00:16:07,001 But I see through you, and through myself too! 113 00:16:07,175 --> 00:16:10,634 And I say take it all away! It's worth nothing! 114 00:16:11,012 --> 00:16:13,846 I'll die and come back to life, 115 00:16:13,973 --> 00:16:16,511 and then you'll hear real violin playing! 116 00:16:16,684 --> 00:16:20,268 Because it all comes down to humility! 117 00:16:20,646 --> 00:16:23,434 Remember that, you despicable loafers, 118 00:16:23,566 --> 00:16:28,402 as you wallow and slobber and burp in your stained ties! 119 00:16:32,283 --> 00:16:34,991 - Are you okay? - Go to hell! 120 00:16:36,454 --> 00:16:38,320 You're making a fool of yourself. 121 00:16:38,498 --> 00:16:41,957 Did you get a haircut? You look like a greased cat. 122 00:16:42,126 --> 00:16:44,664 And it's your fault. 123 00:16:56,724 --> 00:16:59,637 I can't figure out who I am. 124 00:17:00,186 --> 00:17:03,145 Why can't I act like a respectable person, 125 00:17:03,272 --> 00:17:04,979 with all my talent? 126 00:17:05,149 --> 00:17:09,063 Because I really am talented, even if I'm drunk. 127 00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:29,584 Have you met my wife Nelly? 128 00:17:30,424 --> 00:17:33,542 I assure you she's worth knowing. 129 00:17:34,637 --> 00:17:37,550 She's a fun little creature, 130 00:17:37,765 --> 00:17:41,850 with a mouth like a red flower. 131 00:17:42,603 --> 00:17:46,267 I'm thinking of giving you to her. 132 00:17:46,399 --> 00:17:49,142 She'd appreciate that. 133 00:18:04,709 --> 00:18:06,621 Why are you screaming? 134 00:18:06,961 --> 00:18:11,046 The roof fell in... though I could see it was just the curtain. 135 00:18:11,215 --> 00:18:12,831 I have to lie down. 136 00:18:12,967 --> 00:18:14,754 I feel awful. 137 00:18:14,927 --> 00:18:17,419 You overdid it a bit last night. 138 00:18:18,472 --> 00:18:20,885 I need to sit up. 139 00:18:23,853 --> 00:18:27,642 What time is it? Where am I? - 5:00. And you're at my place. 140 00:18:27,815 --> 00:18:30,558 - Why? - There was no moving you. 141 00:18:32,445 --> 00:18:35,779 Stig, cut it out. Don't argue. 142 00:18:35,948 --> 00:18:37,814 You're the one making a fuss. 143 00:18:37,950 --> 00:18:40,863 If you can't settle down, you'll have to go. 144 00:18:41,787 --> 00:18:44,029 I'm awfully silly. 145 00:18:44,165 --> 00:18:45,872 Yes, you are. 146 00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:47,992 People like me shouldn't be alive. 147 00:18:48,169 --> 00:18:49,910 You're harmless. 148 00:18:50,087 --> 00:18:54,206 But couldn't you have bought me that birthday present? 149 00:18:54,383 --> 00:18:58,172 - I did! - But of course you forgot it. 150 00:18:58,346 --> 00:19:01,430 No, you'll see. Where's my coat? 151 00:19:13,110 --> 00:19:15,568 You probably think it's really stupid. 152 00:19:16,197 --> 00:19:18,689 It was all I could come up with. 153 00:19:21,619 --> 00:19:23,451 Thanks so much, Stig. 154 00:19:23,913 --> 00:19:26,326 It's a very nice present. 155 00:19:29,502 --> 00:19:31,789 We should get some sleep. 156 00:19:31,921 --> 00:19:34,163 We have rehearsal at 9:00. 157 00:19:43,849 --> 00:19:48,184 A person might act crazy and stupid at times. 158 00:19:48,938 --> 00:19:53,353 What's important is that he aspire to be a real person and artist. 159 00:19:53,609 --> 00:19:55,191 Hey. 160 00:19:55,861 --> 00:19:57,898 You must agree with that. 161 00:19:58,364 --> 00:20:01,198 Yes, I do. Good night. 162 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:04,651 Night. 163 00:20:12,253 --> 00:20:16,998 AUTUMN HAS SET IN 164 00:20:25,766 --> 00:20:29,055 - Sönderby is nice. - He's a little boring. 165 00:20:29,270 --> 00:20:30,681 Doesn't matter. 166 00:20:30,855 --> 00:20:34,724 - You want to be like him? - He's done good. I'd like to too. 167 00:20:34,900 --> 00:20:36,266 You've got time. 168 00:20:36,444 --> 00:20:38,106 I'm 25. 169 00:20:38,237 --> 00:20:42,322 By then you should be someone with responsibility. 170 00:20:47,580 --> 00:20:51,073 I'd like to start a brilliant string quartet 171 00:20:51,208 --> 00:20:53,575 and tour the world. 172 00:20:53,711 --> 00:20:56,169 We'd be the best! - Of course. 173 00:20:56,589 --> 00:20:59,627 I don't like that odd grin on your face. 174 00:20:59,759 --> 00:21:01,876 Just feeling friendly. 175 00:21:03,763 --> 00:21:06,506 What about you? What do you want? 176 00:21:06,891 --> 00:21:08,598 Nothing. 177 00:21:08,768 --> 00:21:12,728 I'd like to bury myself so deep that nothing got to me. 178 00:21:12,938 --> 00:21:15,430 But you're not unhappy. 179 00:21:15,941 --> 00:21:18,934 Some people have an unnaturally happy air. 180 00:21:19,737 --> 00:21:23,606 We always talk about me whenever we meet. 181 00:21:23,783 --> 00:21:25,740 I know nothing about you. 182 00:21:25,868 --> 00:21:29,657 - Perhaps that's best for both of us. - Don't talk nonsense. 183 00:21:32,208 --> 00:21:34,495 Hey, Stig? 184 00:21:36,295 --> 00:21:38,833 Do you care for me a little? 185 00:21:39,965 --> 00:21:41,672 What do you mean? 186 00:21:41,801 --> 00:21:45,420 You've wanted to sleep with me, and I haven't let you. 187 00:21:45,554 --> 00:21:49,639 If I did, would you care for me a little then? 188 00:21:50,684 --> 00:21:52,471 Be honest. 189 00:21:52,853 --> 00:21:55,140 Don't be afraid of hurting me. 190 00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:59,058 See? You can't answer. 191 00:21:59,235 --> 00:22:01,568 I have to think about it. 192 00:22:03,697 --> 00:22:06,656 Of course I've wondered why you've been so difficult 193 00:22:06,826 --> 00:22:09,159 and put up so many obstacles. 194 00:22:10,371 --> 00:22:14,035 But we've had fun. - You didn't answer my question. 195 00:22:14,208 --> 00:22:16,916 I know exactly what you're asking. 196 00:22:17,169 --> 00:22:19,912 You want some assurance that I love you. 197 00:22:20,089 --> 00:22:22,752 Otherwise you'll have moral pangs. 198 00:22:22,883 --> 00:22:26,342 - God, you're stupid! - Then don't speak in riddles. 199 00:22:27,763 --> 00:22:30,221 I want us to be together. 200 00:22:34,979 --> 00:22:36,515 I'm sorry. 201 00:22:36,689 --> 00:22:41,434 I go on and on and forget I'm talking to a real person. 202 00:22:41,986 --> 00:22:46,572 There's so much misery, laziness, and indifference 203 00:22:46,699 --> 00:22:48,656 in both body and mind. 204 00:22:48,784 --> 00:22:51,697 You end up not believing in anything. 205 00:22:51,871 --> 00:22:54,033 You think that's just how it is. 206 00:22:54,206 --> 00:22:57,995 That's the whole meaning. - There doesn't have to be a meaning. 207 00:22:58,168 --> 00:23:00,251 Yes, there does. 208 00:23:00,462 --> 00:23:02,670 Otherwise you make one up, 209 00:23:02,798 --> 00:23:05,461 or you can't go on living. 210 00:23:05,718 --> 00:23:08,426 I was married. You know that. 211 00:23:09,013 --> 00:23:11,847 But it was just lies and deception. 212 00:23:12,099 --> 00:23:14,637 I've deceived people in my work as well. 213 00:23:14,768 --> 00:23:17,385 I'm only moderately talented. 214 00:23:17,813 --> 00:23:22,308 I've faked my way through almost everything my whole life. 215 00:23:22,651 --> 00:23:26,144 - I don't believe that. - That's easy to say. 216 00:23:26,614 --> 00:23:31,075 What's between us mustn't be fakery. It either is or it isn't. 217 00:23:32,286 --> 00:23:34,152 Are you scared? 218 00:23:34,997 --> 00:23:38,331 There's such a thing as taking things too seriously. 219 00:23:38,667 --> 00:23:42,081 This will be just like playing with words for you. 220 00:23:43,047 --> 00:23:45,004 I want to be with you. 221 00:23:45,132 --> 00:23:46,839 You've noticed that. 222 00:23:47,009 --> 00:23:52,471 But one can't always be talking about love and marriage either. 223 00:23:52,932 --> 00:23:55,595 I promise to be as nice as I can. 224 00:23:55,726 --> 00:23:57,888 We won't make any promises. 225 00:23:58,270 --> 00:24:00,762 But we can promise to be honest. 226 00:24:00,940 --> 00:24:02,977 That's absolutely necessary. 227 00:24:03,150 --> 00:24:05,107 - And no insults. - No. 228 00:24:05,235 --> 00:24:08,774 And if we tire of each other, we'll say so. 229 00:24:09,114 --> 00:24:11,572 It'll be you who tires of me. 230 00:24:12,618 --> 00:24:14,780 You don't really believe that. 231 00:24:15,496 --> 00:24:17,988 No, we won't delude ourselves. 232 00:24:18,123 --> 00:24:20,456 There'll be many difficult times, 233 00:24:20,584 --> 00:24:23,748 more difficult than we can foresee. 234 00:24:24,129 --> 00:24:25,791 - Let's stop now. - Yes. 235 00:24:26,674 --> 00:24:29,712 Let's go move your things to my place. 236 00:24:29,843 --> 00:24:32,210 It'll be practical, and cheaper too. 237 00:24:32,388 --> 00:24:35,927 Good. I hate my room. I'll get rheumatism there. 238 00:24:36,141 --> 00:24:39,509 We'll split the rent starting next month. 239 00:24:47,611 --> 00:24:51,400 I promise you won't have to sleep on that uncomfortable sofa. 240 00:24:51,699 --> 00:24:54,533 Unless you really want to, of course. 241 00:26:07,441 --> 00:26:10,650 Just what did you do over Christmas break? 242 00:26:11,236 --> 00:26:15,071 In this blasted town where people just eat and eat! 243 00:26:15,407 --> 00:26:17,899 You blobs! 244 00:26:18,035 --> 00:26:19,947 This is a difficult part. 245 00:26:20,079 --> 00:26:22,196 Not for someone with talent. 246 00:26:22,372 --> 00:26:25,365 But some people are lazybones and blockheads. 247 00:26:25,501 --> 00:26:27,743 Once more from the top. 248 00:26:53,445 --> 00:26:57,689 I can't listen to any more of this frightful screeching. 249 00:26:57,825 --> 00:26:59,441 We'll take ten minutes. 250 00:26:59,576 --> 00:27:01,112 Break! 251 00:27:27,646 --> 00:27:29,763 We have to ask for time off. 252 00:27:30,107 --> 00:27:31,769 Time off? 253 00:27:33,152 --> 00:27:34,643 Are you crazy? 254 00:27:34,820 --> 00:27:38,279 You said last week we could leave by 1:00. It's now 1:30. 255 00:27:38,448 --> 00:27:40,986 I didn't realize then you were so untalented. 256 00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:43,152 In any case, we have to go. 257 00:27:43,287 --> 00:27:46,405 - Really? - We're getting married at 2:30. 258 00:27:48,333 --> 00:27:50,825 My God! 259 00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:53,662 I completely forgot. 260 00:27:53,922 --> 00:27:56,710 I should probably apply for my pension and retire. 261 00:27:56,884 --> 00:28:00,377 I was supposed to be... - Our witness. 262 00:28:02,014 --> 00:28:03,846 Wonderful. 263 00:28:05,517 --> 00:28:08,430 We'll just have to call the mayor and postpone it. 264 00:28:08,604 --> 00:28:11,472 You can't postpone a wedding without valid reason. 265 00:28:11,648 --> 00:28:14,857 But you can cancel a rehearsal? 266 00:28:15,027 --> 00:28:17,485 A wedding date is respected even in wartime. 267 00:28:17,613 --> 00:28:19,696 This isn't a military unit. 268 00:28:19,865 --> 00:28:22,608 It sometimes seems like a concentration camp. 269 00:28:23,035 --> 00:28:25,743 What impudence! We'll rehearse all day. 270 00:28:25,913 --> 00:28:28,030 Without Marta and me. 271 00:28:28,207 --> 00:28:30,915 Then you can leave my orchestra. 272 00:28:31,084 --> 00:28:33,542 We make your orchestra! 273 00:28:33,962 --> 00:28:37,046 You weren't given the strap as a child. 274 00:28:37,174 --> 00:28:39,712 And you're turning into a child again. 275 00:28:41,929 --> 00:28:43,511 Go to hell! 276 00:28:43,680 --> 00:28:46,093 No, I don't want to be where you are. 277 00:28:55,275 --> 00:28:57,642 You know I'm not supposed to get angry. 278 00:28:57,819 --> 00:29:00,277 You're ungrateful and inconsiderate. 279 00:29:00,405 --> 00:29:03,068 I could have a heart attack and die. 280 00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:04,691 Good riddance. 281 00:29:04,826 --> 00:29:07,534 Then at least honest folk could get married. 282 00:29:07,704 --> 00:29:11,197 This is what comes from letting women into orchestras. 283 00:29:14,461 --> 00:29:16,077 What's wrong with her? 284 00:29:19,049 --> 00:29:21,006 Did you look in the toolbox? 285 00:29:21,134 --> 00:29:23,091 Yes, and your jewelry box too. 286 00:29:23,262 --> 00:29:25,094 Go buy a new stud. 287 00:29:25,264 --> 00:29:28,223 How could it just disappear? 288 00:29:28,392 --> 00:29:32,011 Sure you haven't seen it? - Darling, I don't have time for that. 289 00:29:32,145 --> 00:29:35,138 - Where is it? - I'm coming. 290 00:29:35,315 --> 00:29:37,102 Here I am. 291 00:29:37,401 --> 00:29:39,438 What a hurry we're in! 292 00:29:39,569 --> 00:29:44,280 Getting married is time-consuming and nerve-wracking. Admit it. 293 00:29:44,574 --> 00:29:46,281 You having regrets? 294 00:29:46,451 --> 00:29:48,943 Terrible regrets, to be honest. 295 00:29:49,121 --> 00:29:52,285 Me too. The ideas we get sometimes! 296 00:29:52,708 --> 00:29:54,791 - We'll call and cancel. - Now? 297 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,452 We made all this fuss to get away. 298 00:29:57,629 --> 00:29:59,586 What would Sönderby say? 299 00:29:59,715 --> 00:30:02,628 - You certainly handled him well. - What do you mean? 300 00:30:02,801 --> 00:30:05,794 The way you fainted stopped him cold. 301 00:30:06,013 --> 00:30:07,754 That was for real. 302 00:30:07,889 --> 00:30:10,973 Don't try that with me. It was amateur dramatics. 303 00:30:11,101 --> 00:30:14,970 - I see. - Did you really feel faint? 304 00:30:15,147 --> 00:30:17,355 - What if I did? - Why? 305 00:30:17,524 --> 00:30:20,983 It's not so unusual. I happen to be pregnant. 306 00:30:22,321 --> 00:30:26,486 You don't seem too enthusiastic. Well, you don't have to be. 307 00:30:26,616 --> 00:30:29,074 - How did this happen? - In the usual way. 308 00:30:29,244 --> 00:30:32,408 - Don't be funny. - Dumb questions get dumb answers. 309 00:30:32,581 --> 00:30:35,665 - Have you known long? - Almost three months. 310 00:30:35,834 --> 00:30:39,123 Hit me if you want. - Why didn't you say anything? 311 00:30:39,296 --> 00:30:41,959 Because I want this child. Understand? 312 00:30:42,090 --> 00:30:45,674 - Children come, want them or not. - You're so naïve! 313 00:30:45,802 --> 00:30:47,759 - You mean... - Yes! 314 00:30:47,929 --> 00:30:50,763 - You never told me. - Would it have made a difference? 315 00:30:50,891 --> 00:30:54,976 If you've had one abortion, you can have another. It's all disgusting! 316 00:30:55,103 --> 00:30:56,844 What's disgusting? 317 00:30:57,022 --> 00:31:00,982 Waiting three months to say anything. How do I know it's mine? 318 00:31:02,152 --> 00:31:04,895 Besides, there's no room. 319 00:31:05,030 --> 00:31:07,192 Diapers and pee and childcare 320 00:31:07,366 --> 00:31:10,825 and babysitters and cribs and God knows what else! 321 00:31:11,328 --> 00:31:14,446 All the crying and chaos. Where will I rehearse? 322 00:31:14,581 --> 00:31:16,447 Thanks so much. 323 00:31:16,708 --> 00:31:19,121 How did you think you'd pull this off? 324 00:31:19,252 --> 00:31:21,619 You'd have to tell me sometime. 325 00:31:21,838 --> 00:31:24,205 Think you'd come home one day and say... 326 00:31:24,383 --> 00:31:26,466 "Here's a baby for you, Daddy"? 327 00:31:26,593 --> 00:31:29,085 Well? - Should I apologize? 328 00:31:29,221 --> 00:31:31,053 You don't understand. 329 00:31:31,223 --> 00:31:34,182 I don't want a child. I hate children! 330 00:31:34,893 --> 00:31:38,057 You think this is a good world to come into? 331 00:31:38,230 --> 00:31:40,267 I prefer extinction. 332 00:31:41,650 --> 00:31:43,892 Why don't you say something? 333 00:31:44,194 --> 00:31:45,901 I'm listening to you. 334 00:31:46,029 --> 00:31:48,191 You have no idea what you're talking about. 335 00:31:48,365 --> 00:31:50,948 You're talking nonsense... as usual. 336 00:31:51,118 --> 00:31:53,030 What do you want me to do? 337 00:31:53,203 --> 00:31:56,071 Hug you and say he'll be prime minister one day? 338 00:31:56,248 --> 00:32:00,117 - I'd like you to act like a man... for once. - Superman? 339 00:32:00,293 --> 00:32:03,127 - A regular man. - So now I'm not a man! 340 00:32:03,255 --> 00:32:05,542 I knew you were neurotic, 341 00:32:05,674 --> 00:32:07,961 and you're childish and selfish too. 342 00:32:08,343 --> 00:32:10,926 But I didn't know you were cruel. 343 00:32:11,096 --> 00:32:12,303 Do tell. 344 00:32:12,431 --> 00:32:15,014 It's good I found out before the wedding, 345 00:32:15,142 --> 00:32:18,260 because now there won't be one. 346 00:32:19,312 --> 00:32:21,679 We can't cancel now! 347 00:32:22,065 --> 00:32:24,933 And they say women are so conventional! 348 00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:29,195 - What will happen now? - I'm going to the tobacco shop to call. 349 00:32:29,364 --> 00:32:31,321 Since you're not interested. 350 00:32:31,491 --> 00:32:34,029 You can go on living here. I don't care. 351 00:32:34,161 --> 00:32:36,869 I've never considered you more than a lodger. 352 00:32:37,038 --> 00:32:39,121 You're absolutely crazy! 353 00:32:39,791 --> 00:32:41,407 Are you crying? 354 00:32:41,793 --> 00:32:44,126 I've never seen you cry. Are you upset? 355 00:32:44,296 --> 00:32:45,753 No. 356 00:32:45,922 --> 00:32:49,131 I'm just tired. Of you. 357 00:32:49,551 --> 00:32:52,794 - Have I spoiled everything? - What a thing to say! 358 00:32:52,971 --> 00:32:56,135 Why are you crying? You know what I'm like! 359 00:32:56,725 --> 00:33:00,594 I'm only crying because I'm angry that I'm crying. 360 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:04,438 I wouldn't cry at all if I weren't completely drained. 361 00:33:04,983 --> 00:33:07,566 I guess you thought I'd be happy. 362 00:33:09,488 --> 00:33:12,777 Deep down I knew it would be just like this. 363 00:33:13,408 --> 00:33:17,072 But of course one imagines lots of things. 364 00:33:17,329 --> 00:33:19,867 Maybe that's part of it too. 365 00:33:20,332 --> 00:33:22,995 Did you do that last time too? 366 00:33:23,168 --> 00:33:26,127 Everything was all wrong last time. 367 00:33:26,254 --> 00:33:28,997 It wasn't the time to be imagining anything. 368 00:33:30,008 --> 00:33:32,125 You mean this time...? 369 00:33:32,385 --> 00:33:34,502 I sort of thought 370 00:33:34,846 --> 00:33:38,305 things were different between us. 371 00:33:39,434 --> 00:33:42,393 I should have known that nothing ever changes. 372 00:33:42,646 --> 00:33:45,309 Everything's always the same... 373 00:33:46,191 --> 00:33:48,524 down to the words one speaks. 374 00:33:48,902 --> 00:33:50,939 I love you, damn it! 375 00:33:55,033 --> 00:33:56,865 But sweetheart... 376 00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:59,656 you know I've never liked surprises. 377 00:33:59,829 --> 00:34:01,536 Even when I was little... 378 00:34:01,706 --> 00:34:04,744 I'd get angry and upset even at a nice surprise. 379 00:34:04,876 --> 00:34:07,619 I think that's what happened this time too. 380 00:34:08,547 --> 00:34:10,209 I must say: 381 00:34:10,382 --> 00:34:12,840 Your timing could have been better. 382 00:34:12,968 --> 00:34:16,302 Hey, when I think about it, we'll get child support. 383 00:34:16,429 --> 00:34:18,295 That's fantastic! 384 00:34:18,431 --> 00:34:20,844 The little guy will practically support us. 385 00:34:20,976 --> 00:34:24,686 And the orchestra can't toss you out just 'cause you've got a kid. 386 00:34:24,854 --> 00:34:27,437 Putte's sister is always knocked up, 387 00:34:27,566 --> 00:34:31,901 and she sits there playing, her big belly hanging out. 388 00:34:32,070 --> 00:34:35,654 And when the violin won't fit under her neck anymore, 389 00:34:35,782 --> 00:34:38,570 she still draws half her salary. 390 00:34:38,743 --> 00:34:42,908 And we can always find a new place if need be. 391 00:34:45,458 --> 00:34:47,245 You talk a lot. 392 00:34:47,419 --> 00:34:49,536 What I said about surprises is true. 393 00:34:49,671 --> 00:34:52,789 It's also psychologically credible. 394 00:34:57,095 --> 00:34:59,257 I look so awful. 395 00:34:59,639 --> 00:35:02,928 My nose grows twice as big when I cry. 396 00:35:14,779 --> 00:35:19,740 Say what you like, this will be a wedding we'll always remember. 397 00:36:40,198 --> 00:36:44,158 Marriage is for the individual's well being and society's good. 398 00:36:44,327 --> 00:36:47,946 You've indicated your willingness to enter into matrimony. 399 00:36:48,248 --> 00:36:53,710 Stig Ericsson, do you take Marta Olsson to be your lawful wife? 400 00:36:53,878 --> 00:36:54,994 I do. 401 00:36:55,171 --> 00:36:59,461 Marta Olsson, do you take Stig Ericsson to be your lawful husband? 402 00:36:59,634 --> 00:37:00,875 I do. 403 00:37:01,052 --> 00:37:04,045 You may place the ring on the lady's finger. 404 00:37:10,895 --> 00:37:14,559 By the power vested in me, I pronounce you man and wife. 405 00:37:14,774 --> 00:37:18,358 Never forget the promise of fidelity that you've made. 406 00:37:18,528 --> 00:37:21,066 Live together in mutual love 407 00:37:21,197 --> 00:37:24,736 and safeguard the future generation. 408 00:37:24,993 --> 00:37:29,488 May harmony and happiness reign in your marriage and in your home. 409 00:38:19,255 --> 00:38:21,588 Maybe he will be prime minister. 410 00:38:21,716 --> 00:38:23,958 If he takes after you, that is. 411 00:38:27,430 --> 00:38:29,262 The stud. 412 00:38:30,475 --> 00:38:32,592 We'll keep it as a souvenir. 413 00:38:40,985 --> 00:38:44,649 Well, we've got two weeks. 414 00:38:45,031 --> 00:38:47,899 You and I have gone through the concert twice. 415 00:38:48,201 --> 00:38:52,445 You'll handle it adequately enough. - Sure. 416 00:38:52,622 --> 00:38:54,329 "Sure," you say. 417 00:38:54,457 --> 00:38:56,494 But I know what you're thinking. 418 00:38:56,668 --> 00:38:58,284 What does your wife say? 419 00:38:58,419 --> 00:38:59,830 Nothing. 420 00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:02,329 That worries me. 421 00:39:02,465 --> 00:39:06,175 You two are trying to keep me down. 422 00:39:06,511 --> 00:39:10,846 If I were honest, I'd prefer to avoid this high-wire act. 423 00:39:11,099 --> 00:39:14,843 But what do you do when your violin soloist packs it in? 424 00:39:15,019 --> 00:39:17,602 You're being very closed-minded. 425 00:39:18,147 --> 00:39:19,854 What are you staring at? 426 00:39:21,734 --> 00:39:23,600 I'll tell you. 427 00:39:24,654 --> 00:39:27,488 I'm staring at that devil called ambition 428 00:39:27,615 --> 00:39:29,607 twinkling in your eyes. 429 00:39:29,742 --> 00:39:31,529 Is that so unusual? 430 00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:33,531 No. 431 00:39:33,872 --> 00:39:35,738 No, it's not. 432 00:39:36,332 --> 00:39:38,244 It's not unusual at all. 433 00:39:38,668 --> 00:39:41,456 But you've only been here six months, 434 00:39:41,713 --> 00:39:44,672 and you've yet to learn that music is a goal, 435 00:39:44,799 --> 00:39:46,631 not a means. 436 00:39:55,685 --> 00:39:57,893 Well, what did he say? 437 00:39:58,062 --> 00:40:00,145 It worked. I have my chance. 438 00:40:00,273 --> 00:40:02,515 I'll show them how the violin is played. 439 00:40:02,650 --> 00:40:05,484 The sky's the limit now, my little tubby! 440 00:40:06,237 --> 00:40:08,604 Maybe I'll go all the way to Stockholm. 441 00:40:08,740 --> 00:40:11,027 There's no telling what could happen. 442 00:40:11,159 --> 00:40:15,244 It's a wonderful feeling to have everything ahead of you. 443 00:40:15,455 --> 00:40:17,572 To know no limits. 444 00:40:17,916 --> 00:40:21,705 You must be happy too. This is for both of us. 445 00:40:22,003 --> 00:40:23,619 Of course I'm happy. 446 00:44:45,141 --> 00:44:46,222 Come on. 447 00:44:46,350 --> 00:44:48,842 I'm not going out there. I'm no clown! 448 00:44:48,978 --> 00:44:52,016 You'll go out there if it's the last thing you do. 449 00:44:52,190 --> 00:44:55,433 It's not about you now. Come on. 450 00:45:33,648 --> 00:45:36,482 Rehearsal isn't until 10:00 tomorrow. 451 00:45:36,609 --> 00:45:37,975 You know that. 452 00:45:38,110 --> 00:45:41,820 Goddamned bastard! Now he's happy, of course. 453 00:45:41,989 --> 00:45:45,107 Let's go home and have a drink. We both need it. 454 00:45:45,243 --> 00:45:47,781 Come on. We can't stay here. 455 00:45:48,079 --> 00:45:50,492 Goddamned bastard! 456 00:45:50,623 --> 00:45:52,159 I'm simply mediocre! 457 00:45:52,291 --> 00:45:56,251 - That went better than expected. - Go jump in a lake. 458 00:46:18,484 --> 00:46:20,817 It's better if you read it. 459 00:46:43,217 --> 00:46:44,924 Read it out loud. 460 00:46:45,970 --> 00:46:49,134 - There isn't much. - Read what's there. 461 00:46:51,642 --> 00:46:54,134 "Stig Ericsson made a premature debut 462 00:46:54,270 --> 00:46:56,387 in the Mendelssohn Violin Concerto. 463 00:46:56,522 --> 00:47:00,232 It's surprising that an experienced conductor like Sönderby 464 00:47:00,526 --> 00:47:04,486 didn't prevent this rather unnecessary suicide. 465 00:47:05,698 --> 00:47:08,486 Ericsson may well be talented. 466 00:47:08,784 --> 00:47:11,618 The concert program indicates 467 00:47:11,996 --> 00:47:14,613 he's been to the best schools." 468 00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:17,491 Go on. 469 00:47:18,669 --> 00:47:20,160 That's all it says. 470 00:47:21,005 --> 00:47:22,541 That's all...? 471 00:47:26,844 --> 00:47:28,676 Was it that bad? 472 00:47:34,060 --> 00:47:37,349 You must be happy now, you and Sönderby. 473 00:47:38,356 --> 00:47:41,019 Just think how everyone will laugh! 474 00:47:46,655 --> 00:47:49,363 - Where are you going? - To make some coffee. 475 00:47:49,533 --> 00:47:52,025 - I don't want coffee. - I do. 476 00:47:54,372 --> 00:47:57,240 Of course you think this doesn't matter. 477 00:48:09,095 --> 00:48:13,635 - Close the window. I'm freezing. - I feel ill. I want some fresh air. 478 00:48:14,892 --> 00:48:17,054 Why don't you say something? 479 00:48:19,688 --> 00:48:22,556 Stig, what should I say? 480 00:48:22,691 --> 00:48:24,557 That it went well? 481 00:48:24,735 --> 00:48:28,069 That they printed lies? That the whole world is wrong? 482 00:48:28,239 --> 00:48:31,732 Shall I console you and say it'll be better next time? 483 00:48:31,867 --> 00:48:35,235 There'll be no next time. You know that as well as I do. 484 00:48:39,208 --> 00:48:42,576 - I'd be happy about one thing. - What's that? 485 00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:45,583 That I can go to rehearsal 486 00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:47,588 at 10:00 a.m., 487 00:48:48,008 --> 00:48:51,422 sit in my usual place, and do my job. 488 00:48:51,929 --> 00:48:54,171 That shows how little you understand. 489 00:48:54,306 --> 00:48:56,514 I'm going out for a walk... alone. 490 00:48:56,684 --> 00:48:58,471 Can I go with you? 491 00:48:58,602 --> 00:49:00,559 Please, Stig. 492 00:49:01,188 --> 00:49:04,977 Alone, I said. I don't want to drag your load too. 493 00:49:07,695 --> 00:49:09,937 Will you go to rehearsal? 494 00:49:10,197 --> 00:49:11,688 I don't know. 495 00:49:11,824 --> 00:49:15,363 It's none of your business. - You shouldn't push me away. 496 00:49:16,454 --> 00:49:18,867 There's a lot I shouldn't do. 497 00:49:20,624 --> 00:49:23,458 These things are easier when someone's beside you. 498 00:49:25,463 --> 00:49:28,581 But no one ever is. Deep down you're always alone. 499 00:49:28,716 --> 00:49:31,584 What you're saying is just sentimental jabbering. 500 00:49:31,969 --> 00:49:34,211 I'm alone, just like always. 501 00:49:34,346 --> 00:49:36,133 That's all there is to it. 502 00:49:37,808 --> 00:49:40,221 Why are you so scared of me? 503 00:49:40,978 --> 00:49:42,514 Scared? 504 00:49:43,647 --> 00:49:45,388 What a laugh! 505 00:49:45,524 --> 00:49:48,767 I want to be left alone, that's all. See you. 506 00:50:08,923 --> 00:50:11,461 Sitting here brooding, are you? 507 00:50:11,759 --> 00:50:14,752 What about you? You don't look so happy. 508 00:50:14,929 --> 00:50:17,012 Insomnia. 509 00:50:17,515 --> 00:50:19,598 Working on a character? 510 00:50:19,725 --> 00:50:21,432 An act of creation? 511 00:50:21,602 --> 00:50:23,184 Not at all. 512 00:50:23,437 --> 00:50:26,430 I heard the Mendelssohn yesterday. It was awful. 513 00:50:26,607 --> 00:50:29,020 I didn't dare sleep after that. 514 00:50:29,693 --> 00:50:32,060 Good of you to take it like that. 515 00:50:32,196 --> 00:50:33,812 You understand. 516 00:50:34,198 --> 00:50:37,691 I know it myself. The great silence. 517 00:50:38,244 --> 00:50:40,406 Why that grin? Everyone keeps grinning! 518 00:50:40,538 --> 00:50:43,030 Am I that funny, or is it coincidence? 519 00:50:43,165 --> 00:50:46,124 Of course you're funny. You fell on your face. 520 00:50:46,252 --> 00:50:47,914 Come on. 521 00:50:48,045 --> 00:50:50,378 We'll have some coffee at my place. 522 00:50:54,093 --> 00:50:57,427 Lord, what a mess it is in here! 523 00:50:57,763 --> 00:51:00,551 I can't tidy up every day. 524 00:51:00,683 --> 00:51:02,390 You never tidy up, sweetheart. 525 00:51:02,560 --> 00:51:06,099 We'll pull the blinds so we don't have to see it. 526 00:51:06,230 --> 00:51:09,598 It was so filthy once that the health authorities came by. 527 00:51:09,775 --> 00:51:12,734 They said we'd have to move if we didn't do better. 528 00:51:12,861 --> 00:51:15,820 We had a dog then, but he died. 529 00:51:15,990 --> 00:51:18,824 He had puppies first. Then he died. 530 00:51:19,076 --> 00:51:21,568 Probably from the surprise. 531 00:51:26,292 --> 00:51:28,249 You look so sad. 532 00:51:28,544 --> 00:51:32,754 I'd hoped to catch the moon in a net. 533 00:51:33,007 --> 00:51:37,923 But just as I was going to pull it up, it sank deep below me. 534 00:51:38,053 --> 00:51:42,172 - Like a fish? - No, like a big coin. 535 00:51:42,349 --> 00:51:44,932 Oh, now I understand. 536 00:51:45,102 --> 00:51:46,809 You're a treasure hunter 537 00:51:46,937 --> 00:51:50,396 who sets out to sea and fishes for sunken planets. 538 00:51:50,524 --> 00:51:52,561 I've thought of buying a bomb 539 00:51:52,735 --> 00:51:56,445 to blow up a certain building, with all the vermin inside. 540 00:51:58,157 --> 00:52:01,571 Puppy sickness, my boy. Verbal diarrhea. 541 00:52:01,744 --> 00:52:03,610 Blow things up... 542 00:52:03,787 --> 00:52:07,201 slam your fist down and curse the heavens! 543 00:52:07,374 --> 00:52:09,661 It all ends in a pension 544 00:52:09,793 --> 00:52:13,082 and a medal for loyal service. Cheers! 545 00:52:13,213 --> 00:52:15,455 Shut up. I'm talking to your wife. 546 00:52:15,633 --> 00:52:18,250 It's pointless being married to an old pig like you. 547 00:52:18,385 --> 00:52:20,923 Moving, isn't it? 548 00:52:22,973 --> 00:52:26,762 - I'm going home. I have a rehearsal. - Good day. 549 00:52:26,894 --> 00:52:29,432 Remember: You're always welcome here, 550 00:52:29,563 --> 00:52:32,351 no matter what state you're in. 551 00:52:33,192 --> 00:52:35,559 - Come back soon. - Never. 552 00:52:35,694 --> 00:52:38,061 - Why not? - I don't like you. 553 00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:42,069 - Doesn't seem that way. - Besides, this place is filthy. 554 00:52:42,242 --> 00:52:43,824 Shame on you. 555 00:52:43,994 --> 00:52:46,987 You do have a nice body, but it ends there. 556 00:52:47,164 --> 00:52:50,908 - That's nothing to sneeze at. - You seem totally mad. 557 00:52:51,085 --> 00:52:54,749 If you think I'd share you with that old bugger, you're wrong. 558 00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:56,872 I haven't sunk that low yet. 559 00:52:57,007 --> 00:52:58,839 Even so, come again sometime. 560 00:52:59,009 --> 00:53:01,877 We can always talk about the moon. 561 00:53:02,805 --> 00:53:04,717 I suppose we could do that. 562 00:53:06,475 --> 00:53:08,057 Cut it out! 563 00:53:38,257 --> 00:53:40,715 I thought I'd take a walk myself, 564 00:53:40,884 --> 00:53:44,719 though I was actually hoping to bump into you. 565 00:53:45,681 --> 00:53:47,547 We can go in opposite directions. 566 00:53:47,725 --> 00:53:49,887 I was at Mikael Bror's. 567 00:53:50,060 --> 00:53:51,892 Really? 568 00:53:54,690 --> 00:53:58,900 - Must we keep talking about it? - No, we'll never talk about it again. 569 00:53:59,069 --> 00:54:03,439 Maybe when we're older, and it doesn't hurt so much. 570 00:54:03,574 --> 00:54:06,567 - Did you hurt yourself? - Did I? 571 00:54:07,828 --> 00:54:10,866 - No, it's just lipstick. - Oh? 572 00:54:11,081 --> 00:54:15,576 A strange girl there insisted on trying to kiss me. 573 00:55:57,062 --> 00:55:58,553 Are you okay? 574 00:55:58,814 --> 00:56:01,022 It's on its way. 575 00:56:01,233 --> 00:56:02,940 Can I help? 576 00:56:03,944 --> 00:56:05,560 Are you scared? 577 00:56:05,696 --> 00:56:08,404 Yes, I am. Are you? 578 00:56:08,699 --> 00:56:11,863 I don't know. I haven't felt like finding out. 579 00:56:12,119 --> 00:56:15,578 In some ways it'll feel good to finally get it out. 580 00:56:15,747 --> 00:56:18,205 I'm glad it's not me doing this. 581 00:56:18,333 --> 00:56:19,824 Me too. 582 00:56:22,254 --> 00:56:25,088 I feel awful. 583 00:56:25,215 --> 00:56:27,332 Shouldn't we get going? 584 00:56:27,467 --> 00:56:29,049 Not yet. 585 00:56:29,219 --> 00:56:32,553 It'd look silly if they just sent us home again. 586 00:56:32,723 --> 00:56:34,715 That would be humiliating. 587 00:56:40,898 --> 00:56:42,514 Poor thing. 588 00:56:42,649 --> 00:56:45,062 Shall I fix some tea and sandwiches? 589 00:56:45,235 --> 00:56:46,817 Yes, please. 590 00:56:46,987 --> 00:56:50,731 I don't know what's wrong. Probably something I ate. 591 00:56:51,575 --> 00:56:55,194 Among some tribal peoples, when the wife goes into labor, 592 00:56:55,329 --> 00:56:58,663 the man takes to his bed, screaming and carrying on. 593 00:56:58,832 --> 00:57:01,950 He takes all the congratulations as well. 594 00:57:02,085 --> 00:57:04,077 Only fair, I guess. 595 00:57:04,212 --> 00:57:05,999 Right, Stig? 596 00:57:20,479 --> 00:57:22,766 Mrs. Ericsson, come with me. 597 00:57:22,940 --> 00:57:25,273 Please stay here, Mr. Ericsson. 598 00:57:25,901 --> 00:57:27,813 Be brave, darling. 599 01:01:50,790 --> 01:01:53,453 AUGUST THREE YEARS LATER 600 01:02:01,551 --> 01:02:04,544 Your parents were very poor. 601 01:02:04,721 --> 01:02:07,885 They had no food at all. 602 01:02:18,151 --> 01:02:21,315 I'm glad I'm not a writer. 603 01:02:21,988 --> 01:02:26,403 If I were to take it upon myself to portray Stig and Marta 604 01:02:26,576 --> 01:02:29,694 from when we first met four years ago, 605 01:02:29,871 --> 01:02:34,411 what a dishonest and incomplete picture I would paint. 606 01:02:34,960 --> 01:02:39,125 For example, I'll never forget the episode last winter, 607 01:02:39,464 --> 01:02:42,832 when I stopped by to drop off a score for Stig. 608 01:02:42,968 --> 01:02:47,178 Maybe to chat a bit too. I'm getting old and talkative. 609 01:02:47,347 --> 01:02:51,091 One has to watch oneself so carefully. 610 01:02:51,851 --> 01:02:55,640 The doorbell was broken, so I walked in. 611 01:02:56,189 --> 01:02:58,806 I stood in the dark entryway 612 01:02:58,942 --> 01:03:01,605 and peered into the living room. 613 01:03:02,445 --> 01:03:06,109 How can I describe the way they held each other? 614 01:03:06,324 --> 01:03:08,657 So boundlessly tender, 615 01:03:08,785 --> 01:03:11,698 but with a profound erotic sensitivity. 616 01:03:12,247 --> 01:03:15,035 But why was there so much loneliness 617 01:03:15,166 --> 01:03:17,579 and childish fear in their stillness? 618 01:03:20,797 --> 01:03:24,211 I went out again and knocked on the door. 619 01:03:25,969 --> 01:03:31,135 When Marta came to the door, it was all still there in her eyes. 620 01:03:32,976 --> 01:03:35,013 Yes, she's a remarkable little woman. 621 01:03:36,813 --> 01:03:39,396 Or the day they'd quarreled. 622 01:03:39,524 --> 01:03:41,686 I picked up on it right away. 623 01:03:41,818 --> 01:03:43,684 It hung in the air. 624 01:03:43,862 --> 01:03:45,819 Marta was a little quiet. 625 01:03:45,989 --> 01:03:49,778 She sat huddled on the sofa and looked at Stig. 626 01:03:50,160 --> 01:03:52,197 He talked to me the whole time, 627 01:03:52,329 --> 01:03:54,571 but it was just nervous chatter. 628 01:03:55,123 --> 01:03:57,740 He got up to get the cognac, 629 01:03:57,876 --> 01:04:00,584 but on the way back he passed Marta. 630 01:04:00,754 --> 01:04:04,168 He climbed on the sofa, they looked at one another, 631 01:04:04,341 --> 01:04:07,425 and Stig suddenly said, "Hey, little girl!" 632 01:04:08,261 --> 01:04:10,924 That seemed to break the spell, 633 01:04:11,139 --> 01:04:13,472 because the strained atmosphere vanished 634 01:04:13,641 --> 01:04:16,475 like a puff of wind over the open sea. 635 01:04:16,811 --> 01:04:20,100 I don't know why. I can't tell you. 636 01:04:20,732 --> 01:04:25,648 Imagine trying to decipher the complicated secret language 637 01:04:25,820 --> 01:04:29,109 that two lovers develop and speak, unhindered, 638 01:04:29,282 --> 01:04:33,242 to conceal their most secret and fragile emotions. 639 01:04:34,412 --> 01:04:37,530 Depicting a single day in their lives 640 01:04:37,707 --> 01:04:41,496 would fill many shelves with large volumes. 641 01:04:41,753 --> 01:04:44,245 Thank God that's not my job. 642 01:04:44,506 --> 01:04:46,543 I have only to reproduce 643 01:04:46,716 --> 01:04:51,177 what the great composers created in truth and spirit. 644 01:04:52,055 --> 01:04:54,092 That's my pleasure... 645 01:04:55,183 --> 01:04:57,766 and no one can take it from me. 646 01:05:09,989 --> 01:05:13,824 - I'm a very rich woman. - You never told me. 647 01:05:13,993 --> 01:05:16,235 I have you and the kids, 648 01:05:16,413 --> 01:05:19,076 and old Sönderby snoring over there. 649 01:05:19,249 --> 01:05:22,117 And it's summer, and the sun is shining... 650 01:05:22,419 --> 01:05:24,251 and we have no worries. 651 01:05:24,421 --> 01:05:26,333 And we're all hale and hearty. 652 01:05:26,548 --> 01:05:29,461 For a moment I thought you'd won the lottery. 653 01:05:29,592 --> 01:05:33,131 This is more than I thought any person could have. 654 01:05:33,304 --> 01:05:35,921 Of course. You're a woman. 655 01:05:36,099 --> 01:05:37,931 It's different for you. 656 01:05:38,143 --> 01:05:39,930 You think so? 657 01:05:40,270 --> 01:05:42,557 I can also worry and think... 658 01:05:42,730 --> 01:05:45,643 "Is this what my whole life will be like? 659 01:05:45,775 --> 01:05:48,939 Small concerns, small joys, small tribulations? 660 01:05:49,112 --> 01:05:52,150 Nothing to sweep me off my feet?" 661 01:05:52,449 --> 01:05:57,240 But I deserve a spanking for such a horrible thought, don't I? 662 01:05:57,537 --> 01:05:59,529 I think it's to your credit. 663 01:05:59,706 --> 01:06:04,326 Nowhere is it written that a person should be content, much less happy. 664 01:06:04,461 --> 01:06:05,952 Stig? 665 01:06:06,129 --> 01:06:08,542 It's time we got going 666 01:06:08,756 --> 01:06:11,590 if we're going to make that concert. 667 01:06:12,802 --> 01:06:16,091 How's the work going on the Beethoven concerto? 668 01:06:16,264 --> 01:06:19,723 - Not well. Why? - Yet you keep at it. 669 01:06:19,893 --> 01:06:23,352 - What of it? - Give up the idea of being a soloist. 670 01:06:23,521 --> 01:06:25,979 Settle for being a good orchestra player. 671 01:06:26,107 --> 01:06:28,144 I didn't ask for your advice. 672 01:06:28,651 --> 01:06:30,142 Fair enough. 673 01:06:30,320 --> 01:06:32,562 There's just so little time. 674 01:06:32,739 --> 01:06:37,609 I'm going to take time off and study with Professor Sabaska. 675 01:06:37,869 --> 01:06:41,203 I've written to him. - Pride, pure and simple. 676 01:06:41,372 --> 01:06:44,911 Just because you're an old failure doesn't mean I have to be. 677 01:06:45,168 --> 01:06:47,785 The world needs us second-raters too. 678 01:06:47,962 --> 01:06:50,875 No worker bees, no beehive. 679 01:06:51,132 --> 01:06:53,294 It's awful hearing you talk. 680 01:06:53,426 --> 01:06:55,588 Like listening to the already deceased. 681 01:07:52,485 --> 01:07:54,602 I said not to come here. 682 01:07:54,737 --> 01:07:57,354 Our relationship is nothing to advertise. 683 01:07:57,574 --> 01:08:00,237 I've told Mikael I love you. 684 01:08:02,745 --> 01:08:06,284 I wish I could leave you, but I just can't seem to. 685 01:08:07,375 --> 01:08:11,085 Come on. We can't sit here all night. 686 01:08:17,010 --> 01:08:18,672 Listen to this: 687 01:08:19,095 --> 01:08:22,884 "Everything is part of what is called spiritual science. 688 01:08:23,099 --> 01:08:25,682 This may include the self, society, 689 01:08:25,810 --> 01:08:28,553 state, morals, or religion. 690 01:08:28,730 --> 01:08:31,814 It's all just an intellectual game 691 01:08:31,983 --> 01:08:36,444 with expressions one uses as if denoting something real." 692 01:08:36,821 --> 01:08:40,861 He's on the money, this Hägerström. He has my complete sympathy. 693 01:08:40,992 --> 01:08:43,279 Mine too, but I don't give a damn. 694 01:08:43,453 --> 01:08:45,445 I think Stig's tired tonight. 695 01:08:45,997 --> 01:08:48,705 - What's that? - Our lodger. 696 01:08:48,875 --> 01:08:51,868 It's awful, but we need the money. 697 01:08:53,296 --> 01:08:56,630 Evening! So you're not in bed yet? 698 01:08:56,883 --> 01:08:59,375 I had a bite to eat at the Grand. 699 01:08:59,510 --> 01:09:02,048 Hello there. I didn't know you lived here. 700 01:09:02,180 --> 01:09:05,298 Didn't use to, but I do now. 701 01:09:05,516 --> 01:09:07,178 As of yesterday. 702 01:09:12,273 --> 01:09:16,813 So you move in these circles. 703 01:09:16,944 --> 01:09:18,606 I didn't know that. 704 01:10:25,555 --> 01:10:27,547 ...winds variable at first, 705 01:10:27,682 --> 01:10:29,924 and then primarily from the north. 706 01:10:30,059 --> 01:10:33,143 Partly cloudy, with thundershowers. 707 01:10:33,396 --> 01:10:35,262 Somewhat cooler... 708 01:11:57,188 --> 01:12:00,522 I have to ask you something: Can we move into town? 709 01:12:00,650 --> 01:12:03,313 Right away. As soon as possible. 710 01:12:18,417 --> 01:12:21,535 Did you and the kids have to move into town too? 711 01:12:21,671 --> 01:12:24,163 You had it so good in the country. 712 01:12:25,258 --> 01:12:27,295 Why don't you answer? 713 01:12:39,564 --> 01:12:42,181 Why are you treating me like a criminal? 714 01:12:43,192 --> 01:12:45,434 Sabaska hasn't replied yet. 715 01:12:45,611 --> 01:12:47,227 You're hurting me. 716 01:12:47,405 --> 01:12:51,024 - Maybe you or Sönderby wrote to him. - You're mad. Let me go! 717 01:12:53,119 --> 01:12:55,782 Oh, look. Your teddy bear is torn. 718 01:12:55,955 --> 01:12:58,242 Don't worry. I'll sew him up tomorrow. 719 01:12:58,416 --> 01:13:00,533 It'll just take a second. 720 01:13:02,378 --> 01:13:05,997 We said no fighting in front of the kids. Remember that. 721 01:13:06,173 --> 01:13:09,712 Whatever happens, no fighting in front of the kids. 722 01:13:33,910 --> 01:13:37,278 Don't turn the light out. 723 01:13:37,997 --> 01:13:40,705 Mommy, you can't. 724 01:13:56,098 --> 01:13:58,465 - What time is it? - 10:30. 725 01:14:03,648 --> 01:14:06,265 The fog will be awful tonight. 726 01:14:06,901 --> 01:14:08,187 Sounds like it. 727 01:14:08,819 --> 01:14:10,936 Remember what Sönderby said? 728 01:14:11,072 --> 01:14:14,281 "Sounds like a bunch of cows in a freight car." 729 01:14:38,391 --> 01:14:39,677 What's this? 730 01:14:39,809 --> 01:14:42,472 I don't like you looking at me like that, 731 01:14:42,812 --> 01:14:44,804 like you're comparing. 732 01:14:45,731 --> 01:14:47,267 Maybe I am. 733 01:14:58,077 --> 01:15:00,820 Can't we be nice to each other again? 734 01:15:01,622 --> 01:15:04,990 Why can't we talk about anything anymore? 735 01:15:05,626 --> 01:15:07,663 It's not worth the effort. 736 01:15:40,536 --> 01:15:43,449 No, leave me alone. It's disgusting. 737 01:15:43,622 --> 01:15:47,366 I can't help it. I think it's revolting! 738 01:15:54,884 --> 01:15:57,467 Stop blubbering. No one can hear you. 739 01:15:59,930 --> 01:16:01,592 I've tried. 740 01:16:02,933 --> 01:16:05,391 I've done my best. 741 01:16:06,395 --> 01:16:09,638 I've never accused you or blamed you. 742 01:16:11,025 --> 01:16:14,609 I've always tried to understand you. 743 01:16:16,739 --> 01:16:18,731 So it's my fault? 744 01:16:18,908 --> 01:16:20,945 I've never asked questions. 745 01:16:21,118 --> 01:16:23,861 Why ask questions about what doesn't concern you? 746 01:16:25,206 --> 01:16:28,574 - You and Nelly doesn't concern me? - Not really. 747 01:16:28,751 --> 01:16:32,495 Keep your moral indignation to yourself. I'm not interested. 748 01:16:32,671 --> 01:16:33,912 Why? 749 01:16:34,090 --> 01:16:38,755 If you're not careful, you step in dog shit and can't shake it off. 750 01:16:39,929 --> 01:16:41,670 How dare you! 751 01:16:42,598 --> 01:16:44,430 You're one to talk. 752 01:16:44,767 --> 01:16:47,225 Before we met, there were men all around you. 753 01:16:47,394 --> 01:16:50,432 You were even with that revolting Marcel. 754 01:16:50,606 --> 01:16:54,190 That was before the kids. Don't they mean anything? 755 01:16:54,360 --> 01:16:57,444 There were others before them, but you got rid of them. 756 01:16:57,613 --> 01:17:00,947 Now I'm sorry I insisted when you didn't want children. 757 01:17:01,117 --> 01:17:03,279 You see? 758 01:17:04,286 --> 01:17:05,902 Yes, I see. 759 01:17:06,122 --> 01:17:08,205 I see what we've become. 760 01:17:12,920 --> 01:17:15,037 I know what the problem is. 761 01:17:15,339 --> 01:17:18,002 We both think life has passed us by. 762 01:17:18,134 --> 01:17:21,093 We've both been struck by a moment of clarity... 763 01:17:21,220 --> 01:17:23,803 and with clarity comes disgust. 764 01:17:23,973 --> 01:17:25,965 It's a natural consequence. 765 01:17:26,517 --> 01:17:30,136 We've argued and been nasty to each other before, 766 01:17:30,479 --> 01:17:34,439 but we just had to reach out, and it was fine again. 767 01:17:34,900 --> 01:17:36,983 It was a great sense of security. 768 01:17:37,236 --> 01:17:40,695 Now we've discovered there's no such thing as security. 769 01:17:40,865 --> 01:17:44,859 Remember what you said here our first night together? 770 01:17:45,327 --> 01:17:49,196 The main thing is to become a real person. 771 01:17:49,373 --> 01:17:51,535 We said a lot of things back then. 772 01:17:51,709 --> 01:17:54,326 - It was the truth. - It was all lies. 773 01:17:55,171 --> 01:17:58,414 That morning I came home with my hand cut, 774 01:17:58,591 --> 01:18:00,753 that's when my clarity began. 775 01:18:01,010 --> 01:18:04,799 It was so unbearable that I put my hand through a window 776 01:18:04,930 --> 01:18:08,139 so I'd give up my dream of being a soloist. 777 01:18:08,767 --> 01:18:12,636 I stood there with a bloody hand and thought how stupid I was. 778 01:18:12,813 --> 01:18:15,647 "Why doesn't someone laugh at this second-rate musician 779 01:18:15,816 --> 01:18:18,354 who won't accept his mediocrity?" 780 01:18:18,527 --> 01:18:22,362 Me, me, me! Can't you hear how pitiful you sound? 781 01:18:22,489 --> 01:18:25,482 My apologies. We won't talk about it again. 782 01:18:29,580 --> 01:18:33,620 I'll go to Grandmother's. It's better for the kids there too. 783 01:18:33,751 --> 01:18:36,289 - Where will you get the money? - From you. 784 01:18:36,462 --> 01:18:38,920 - I don't have any. - That's strange. 785 01:18:39,048 --> 01:18:42,541 - I gave it to you last week. - For phone and rent. 786 01:18:42,718 --> 01:18:45,711 - There was always enough before. - You want to see receipts? 787 01:18:45,888 --> 01:18:49,882 - You never set anything aside. - Get an advance like everyone else. 788 01:18:50,059 --> 01:18:51,516 I already did. 789 01:18:51,644 --> 01:18:53,931 You must have other expenses... 790 01:18:54,063 --> 01:18:57,272 - It's my money! - Not when it's for the household. 791 01:18:57,399 --> 01:19:01,359 In any case, I have no money for your hastily planned trip. 792 01:19:01,570 --> 01:19:05,780 We're poor and can't afford expenses of an emotional nature. 793 01:19:05,908 --> 01:19:08,742 - And the money you give to Nelly? - Shut up! 794 01:19:08,911 --> 01:19:11,699 - What kind of tone is that? - It's just like yours! 795 01:19:11,830 --> 01:19:15,915 - A mistress costs money. - A fixed rate is more honest. 796 01:19:16,168 --> 01:19:19,457 - You're so crude. - And you're so sensitive. 797 01:19:19,588 --> 01:19:22,581 Must have been hard with someone like Marcel. 798 01:19:22,758 --> 01:19:24,841 How can you have a lover anyway? 799 01:19:24,969 --> 01:19:27,256 You perform the bare minimum required. 800 01:19:27,388 --> 01:19:29,505 - That's your fault. - Of course. 801 01:19:29,682 --> 01:19:32,470 I was naïve to expect fidelity. - Stop it, Marta. 802 01:19:32,601 --> 01:19:35,344 You need an outlet for your artistic temperament. 803 01:19:35,479 --> 01:19:38,267 Nelly's better at nurturing your misunderstood genius. 804 01:19:38,440 --> 01:19:40,477 Can't be easy for the poor girl! 805 01:19:50,953 --> 01:19:53,616 Forgive me, Marta. Forgive me. 806 01:20:02,715 --> 01:20:06,208 The last part was my fault. I'm to blame. 807 01:20:06,343 --> 01:20:08,255 Forgive me anyway. 808 01:20:09,013 --> 01:20:11,130 But I won't forgive the rest. 809 01:20:12,224 --> 01:20:14,807 I'll find the money for the trip 810 01:20:14,977 --> 01:20:18,436 if I have to beg for it in the streets. 811 01:20:18,564 --> 01:20:20,521 Don't touch me! 812 01:20:20,941 --> 01:20:24,810 You disgust me so much, I'd like to spit in your face! 813 01:20:24,987 --> 01:20:26,603 Fine. 814 01:20:26,822 --> 01:20:29,781 If that's how you want it. 815 01:20:30,242 --> 01:20:35,112 I'll ask Sönderby for the money. It'll be nice to be rid of you. 816 01:20:47,009 --> 01:20:50,218 "The doctor says it's a stroke, 817 01:20:50,471 --> 01:20:53,384 but I know Nelly poisoned me." 818 01:21:09,031 --> 01:21:12,024 - Do you think he's suffering? - Probably. 819 01:21:12,201 --> 01:21:13,658 Good. 820 01:21:13,786 --> 01:21:16,779 I hope he's in such pain he can't stop screaming. 821 01:21:16,955 --> 01:21:19,789 He can't scream. He's paralyzed. 822 01:21:20,250 --> 01:21:22,367 That's the best part. 823 01:21:23,170 --> 01:21:25,537 You must hate him. 824 01:21:26,340 --> 01:21:28,332 He'll be dead soon. 825 01:21:29,426 --> 01:21:31,884 Sometimes it's like a dream. 826 01:21:33,722 --> 01:21:35,714 I'm scared of him. 827 01:21:36,225 --> 01:21:40,219 Sometimes at night I think he'll come beat me or strangle me. 828 01:21:40,604 --> 01:21:43,893 I almost believe you really did poison him. 829 01:21:44,483 --> 01:21:47,226 I often thought I should. 830 01:21:48,153 --> 01:21:50,065 What's he done to you? 831 01:21:50,239 --> 01:21:52,231 What's he done to me? 832 01:21:52,366 --> 01:21:56,030 He just exists. I'm dependent on him. 833 01:21:57,037 --> 01:21:59,825 I don't know. - You can divorce him. 834 01:22:01,125 --> 01:22:03,162 Where would I go? 835 01:22:03,710 --> 01:22:05,576 No one cares about me. 836 01:22:05,712 --> 01:22:09,672 Because you're so damned nasty and lack any human emotions. 837 01:22:14,430 --> 01:22:16,217 I think it's cold. 838 01:22:17,182 --> 01:22:19,094 It's 13 below. 839 01:22:22,521 --> 01:22:26,265 You go in. He can't stand the sight of me. 840 01:22:47,254 --> 01:22:49,917 What's wrong with you? Hung over? 841 01:22:50,048 --> 01:22:52,290 Is there nothing else on besides organ music? 842 01:22:52,468 --> 01:22:54,255 Mikael likes it. 843 01:22:54,803 --> 01:22:57,466 You shouldn't drink like that. 844 01:22:57,639 --> 01:22:59,631 "You shouldn't drink like that." 845 01:22:59,808 --> 01:23:02,300 If you weren't so stupid, 846 01:23:02,478 --> 01:23:04,970 I might point out that I'm always smartly dressed. 847 01:23:05,147 --> 01:23:08,857 - And so? - Take that idiot Stig. How he suffers! 848 01:23:09,026 --> 01:23:11,484 He thinks life is terrible and you're disgusting. 849 01:23:11,612 --> 01:23:14,855 He's washed up and can't face his own failure. 850 01:23:15,115 --> 01:23:19,075 That's why he cheats on his wife and runs around disheveled and dirty. 851 01:23:19,203 --> 01:23:22,571 - He's in there with Mikael. - So let him hear! 852 01:23:23,248 --> 01:23:24,989 I drink, you say? 853 01:23:25,167 --> 01:23:27,284 I do my job. I'm handsome and well-behaved. 854 01:23:27,461 --> 01:23:30,920 I'm polite and friendly, and I live my life! 855 01:23:31,798 --> 01:23:34,506 And in the meantime, I'm damned happy. 856 01:23:35,552 --> 01:23:38,386 I think I'll go in and sleep. 857 01:23:38,514 --> 01:23:41,177 It's all one can do on a Sunday. 858 01:23:43,352 --> 01:23:44,968 You coming? 859 01:23:51,109 --> 01:23:55,228 "I'm a bastard, and I've gotten what I deserve. 860 01:23:55,364 --> 01:23:58,323 But you better watch out, Stig." 861 01:24:00,327 --> 01:24:04,196 Mikael, I'm leaving now and never coming back. 862 01:24:04,540 --> 01:24:08,409 I'm grateful for everything you taught me, but I can't stay. 863 01:24:08,544 --> 01:24:11,378 I don't want to be like you three. 864 01:24:12,047 --> 01:24:15,085 Only one person can help me, and that's Marta. 865 01:24:29,565 --> 01:24:32,524 Dear Marta, I'm sure you're surprised 866 01:24:32,651 --> 01:24:35,644 after not hearing from me for three months. 867 01:24:35,779 --> 01:24:39,523 I had to write because things have happened to me. 868 01:24:39,950 --> 01:24:43,193 It's as if I suddenly understood what a fool I've been. 869 01:24:43,579 --> 01:24:48,370 I realize how I've squandered the only thing of value in life. 870 01:24:51,086 --> 01:24:55,547 Dear Stig, when I got your letter, I was very worried at first. 871 01:24:55,716 --> 01:24:58,379 I could feel how alone you've been, 872 01:24:58,552 --> 01:25:01,169 and how hard it's been in many ways. 873 01:25:01,430 --> 01:25:04,298 I reread your letter many times, 874 01:25:04,433 --> 01:25:07,471 and I could sense that something important has happened. 875 01:25:08,020 --> 01:25:10,478 I too have been thinking, 876 01:25:10,606 --> 01:25:13,189 and now I know we'll never get divorced. 877 01:25:13,317 --> 01:25:15,525 That would be a terrible mistake. 878 01:25:15,652 --> 01:25:19,771 And though I won't be coming home, I long foryou. 879 01:25:20,282 --> 01:25:22,319 My dearest darling Marta, 880 01:25:22,618 --> 01:25:27,158 your words made me so happy I almost started to cry. 881 01:25:27,497 --> 01:25:29,614 One hides so many feelings. 882 01:25:29,791 --> 01:25:34,411 I did with you and the kids, because it hurt too much, 883 01:25:34,838 --> 01:25:39,003 or maybe I didn't understand how much all of you mean to me. 884 01:25:39,760 --> 01:25:42,127 I want you to come get us soon. 885 01:25:42,304 --> 01:25:46,469 There's so much to plan for the summer, isn't there? 886 01:25:46,808 --> 01:25:49,972 Darling, writing feels so strange and stupid. 887 01:25:50,145 --> 01:25:52,387 There's so much I'd like to say, 888 01:25:52,522 --> 01:25:54,980 but it looks silly and sentimental on paper. 889 01:25:55,150 --> 01:25:57,233 I've tried, believe me. 890 01:25:57,402 --> 01:26:01,112 By the way, we don't need to talk when we meet. 891 01:26:01,239 --> 01:26:04,448 I know just how to show you what you mean to me. 892 01:26:04,576 --> 01:26:06,192 Can you guess? 893 01:26:06,328 --> 01:26:07,944 Come soon... 894 01:26:16,296 --> 01:26:20,757 This train is so slow! I'd like to jump off and run alongside it. 895 01:26:20,884 --> 01:26:23,843 Maybe I'd help it up the hill. 896 01:26:24,680 --> 01:26:28,424 It'll be so strange to hear her say... 897 01:26:28,725 --> 01:26:31,092 "You can be so silly sometimes," 898 01:26:31,269 --> 01:26:34,683 or "You sure you washed your ears properly?" 899 01:26:34,856 --> 01:26:38,896 Or to sit in the kitchen after a concert and eat right from the cupboard, 900 01:26:39,069 --> 01:26:43,860 drinking vodka and joking and not saying a serious word. 901 01:26:46,201 --> 01:26:47,863 Quite pretty. 902 01:26:47,994 --> 01:26:49,576 And I'm so tan. 903 01:26:49,746 --> 01:26:53,035 And you can't tell I didn't sleep last night. 904 01:26:53,375 --> 01:26:56,789 Silly girl! I'm just going to meet my husband. 905 01:26:56,962 --> 01:26:58,999 We got fed up with each other, 906 01:26:59,131 --> 01:27:01,874 yet now everything is new... new! 907 01:27:02,134 --> 01:27:04,251 Newly cleansed and polished. 908 01:27:04,428 --> 01:27:06,590 How fun it will be to cook again, 909 01:27:06,763 --> 01:27:10,848 to be master of my own kitchen, to sleep in our own bed. 910 01:27:10,976 --> 01:27:14,390 To feel his warmth as he sleeps beside me. 911 01:27:14,563 --> 01:27:16,725 Never to be alone again. 912 01:27:16,898 --> 01:27:18,685 Never again. 913 01:27:20,986 --> 01:27:24,525 That mouth of hers, so delicious and soft to kiss. 914 01:27:24,906 --> 01:27:29,071 I love her body too. The smooth skin of her shoulders. 915 01:27:29,244 --> 01:27:32,032 Her breasts that never recovered from the kids 916 01:27:32,205 --> 01:27:35,414 but are so sensitive, like living beings. 917 01:27:35,709 --> 01:27:37,792 The fine hair on her neck, 918 01:27:37,919 --> 01:27:40,582 the soft curves of her belly, 919 01:27:40,756 --> 01:27:44,875 her waist so narrow I can wrap my hands around it. 920 01:27:45,594 --> 01:27:49,838 I love her because we've struck each other and hurt each other, 921 01:27:50,223 --> 01:27:52,465 but also for the thousand nights 922 01:27:52,601 --> 01:27:55,264 of joy and utter pleasure we've shared. 923 01:28:55,163 --> 01:28:56,904 SOME YEARS LATER 924 01:28:58,041 --> 01:29:01,000 You've been naughty, so you can't come 925 01:29:01,127 --> 01:29:05,121 when we go see Grandmother. 926 01:29:09,886 --> 01:29:12,754 We'll catch really big fish, 927 01:29:12,889 --> 01:29:18,101 and I'll keep one in the bathtub and teach it how to talk. 928 01:29:18,353 --> 01:29:20,345 Fish can't talk. 929 01:29:20,522 --> 01:29:22,184 You can teach them. 930 01:29:22,399 --> 01:29:24,686 Mom, Lasse's lying! 931 01:29:24,985 --> 01:29:27,398 Stig, would you call for a taxi? 932 01:29:35,787 --> 01:29:38,325 Dad, Lasse's lying. 933 01:29:38,498 --> 01:29:41,206 No, he's just making things up. 934 01:29:43,169 --> 01:29:47,288 Why shouldn't a fish be able to talk? You never know. 935 01:29:47,507 --> 01:29:51,547 Could you send a taxi to Prästgatan 7B? 936 01:29:52,220 --> 01:29:54,007 Ericsson. 937 01:29:54,139 --> 01:29:57,257 Miss! It has to be big. 938 01:29:57,392 --> 01:30:01,306 There are four people and lots of bags and stuff. 939 01:30:01,730 --> 01:30:03,392 That's right. 940 01:30:03,565 --> 01:30:05,306 What do you want? 941 01:30:05,483 --> 01:30:07,566 Ask Sönderby over this evening. 942 01:30:07,694 --> 01:30:09,902 There's mineral water in the fridge. 943 01:30:10,530 --> 01:30:12,396 I'm going to be lonely. 944 01:30:12,532 --> 01:30:14,694 No, you're not. 945 01:30:14,868 --> 01:30:16,530 You'll be just fine. 946 01:30:16,661 --> 01:30:18,402 Thanks very much. 947 01:30:20,957 --> 01:30:24,416 The kids can go on their own. You should stay with me. 948 01:30:24,586 --> 01:30:27,249 You're silly. What would Grandmother say? 949 01:30:27,547 --> 01:30:30,961 You're taking enough stuff to last till Judgment Day. 950 01:30:31,134 --> 01:30:34,798 You needn't come to the station. I can get a porter. 951 01:30:36,598 --> 01:30:40,888 - What's this? A bomb? - No, it's a kerosene stove. 952 01:30:41,102 --> 01:30:44,220 - You're taking a stove? - Yes, it's better that way. 953 01:30:44,397 --> 01:30:46,810 We'll cook our own meals in the cottage 954 01:30:46,942 --> 01:30:48,808 and not bother the old folks. 955 01:30:50,111 --> 01:30:51,818 Go ahead and sigh, 956 01:30:51,947 --> 01:30:54,940 but you'll approve when you come join us. 957 01:31:00,914 --> 01:31:04,874 - You need a haircut. - It's awful. Hair gets all over everything. 958 01:31:05,043 --> 01:31:08,502 - If you came along, I could cut it. - I'll be along later. 959 01:31:08,630 --> 01:31:11,998 - Strange how I always miss you. - What's strange about that? 960 01:31:12,175 --> 01:31:14,167 We've been married so long. 961 01:31:14,344 --> 01:31:16,961 Lasse, don't lick the window. It's dirty. 962 01:31:17,305 --> 01:31:19,297 You'll have nice weather. 963 01:31:19,432 --> 01:31:21,640 Looks like spring's coming. 964 01:31:23,353 --> 01:31:26,846 - Won't this train ever leave? - Anxious to get rid of us? 965 01:31:26,982 --> 01:31:30,350 It just always feels so silly standing on the platform. 966 01:31:31,945 --> 01:31:33,811 Good-bye. 967 01:31:38,410 --> 01:31:41,244 We'll catch a fish that can talk! 968 01:32:58,990 --> 01:33:01,277 I heard what happened. 969 01:33:02,035 --> 01:33:04,618 I'm... I mean... 970 01:33:05,413 --> 01:33:06,949 You don't... 971 01:33:07,499 --> 01:33:10,992 You don't have to come to work if you don't want to. 972 01:33:11,127 --> 01:33:13,414 It's better to keep working. 973 01:33:13,838 --> 01:33:15,249 Very well. 974 01:33:15,882 --> 01:33:17,418 As you like. 975 01:33:17,592 --> 01:33:19,254 Don't touch me. 976 01:33:43,785 --> 01:33:48,780 The cellos and basses should sing like blazes! 977 01:33:50,250 --> 01:33:53,368 It's about joy, you see. 978 01:33:54,212 --> 01:33:57,296 Not the joy expressed in laughter... 979 01:33:58,007 --> 01:34:01,375 or the joy that says, "I'm happy." 980 01:34:02,303 --> 01:34:05,512 What I mean is a joy... 981 01:34:05,807 --> 01:34:08,470 so great, so special... 982 01:34:08,977 --> 01:34:13,142 that it lies beyond pain and boundless despair. 983 01:34:13,273 --> 01:34:14,935 It's a joy... 984 01:34:15,942 --> 01:34:18,355 beyond all understanding. 985 01:34:23,408 --> 01:34:25,650 I can't explain it any better.